New Beginnings
I feel like it has been a while since I have had a candid conversation with you. Although it was only 2 weeks ago that I shared what it was like for me being 23, there is so much that has been happening "backstage" (... or should I say "backpage" Ha!) that I am yet to share on here. Nothing fancy like, "I have been working on a film" or "I have just opened up my own little bakery", just normal everyday stuff like the time I moved house again or the moment I realised I am not a child any more. Go grab a cuppa and let us have a wee catch up.
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Let us rewind to the lovely, warm month of September where I moved out of my first Big Girl flat and into my new one. This move hit me a lot harder than all the rest. For the first time I did absolutely everything by myself -the house hunting, deciding on "the one" and signing the contract. And although my family helped me move my stuff, which had magically doubled since last October, I suddenly found myself in a new flat where the majority of the things in it were mine and didn't come with the flat; this flat that I was now responsible for could be decorated just the way I like it. So naturally, I cried. They weren't happy tears or sad tears but tears due to a blend of the two emotions. The blanket of independence and adulthood wrapped itself tightly around me to the point where I just wanted to run back to my childhood bedroom to play with my Polly Pocket sets and be done with it all.
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The "being an actual adult" scared me more than I thought but I was quite excited to start this new phase of my life as a 20-something in my new digs. As the cool and colourful month of October rolled on by it brought with it a whole bunch of fantastic new experiences for me that I slowly became more confident in myself and eager to see what my future holds. I met the well renowned author, David Nicholls, and sat in on a reading of his new book, Us - more about this soon. I upgraded my blog a bit by getting a domain name and decided to upgrade my own look for my birthday by donning a new 'do. I also got the chance to be on Salford City Radio for an interview with Jill Bowyer whom I met during the press event for HOME's production of Romeo & Juliet. And at work, I got given a lot more responsibility recently which I gladly accepted and made me realise that I am not completely useless haha. You see, I sometimes have a hard time seeing myself for who I really I am and knowing what it is I am capable of despite seeing my opticians regularly. I have read many a blog/book/article that tells you to play to your strengths and figure out what you are passionate about and just do it. But honestly, I am still figuring out what my strengths are and what it is that I want to do in this chapter of my lifetime.
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With it being a new month and all I figured now is a good time as any to wipe the slate clean and start afresh. I have no idea what new challenges this month brings but I am making the conscious decision to quit letting the fear of me not being good enough hold me back and make my dreams a reality even if I don't know exactly what they all are right now. I hope you join me in making this promise to yourself. If there is one thing I have learnt so far is in order to get things done you have to work hard for it.
Giving up is not really an option.
All those plans we have been making but never got around to kick-starting them for what ever reason will be put into action this month. No matter how long it takes to bring our visions to life, we will at least make a start today and enjoy the process of getting to where we want to be; no matter how windy or steep the path is. No more excuses. Yes, we may fail along the way but at least we tried and will keep on trying until we get it. Just know, you are not alone in this fun, slightly frightening and yet rewarding race we call life. I am right here with you.
To new beginnings!
*clinks virtual mug filled with hot green tea*
Mo x