Eat Pray Love: I see...

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Well, well, well...it is about that time of year when one sits back to reflect on all that has happened in the last year and I seem to be doing that a lot lately. Screw waiting until the 31^st of December to agonise over every failure I had and celebrate all the achievements I managed to make. I have been doing just that over the past couple months and the one "failure" that I can't quite seem to shake is my somewhat chronic inability to love what I see in the mirror. Now just hold on a hot second, I know I am not ugly or overweight. Although I do acknowledge the fact that there will be people who will agree to disagree with me on that haha. I just do not particularly like my current dress size or the fact that some days 4 flights of stairs begin to feel like Mount Everest to me. And yes, I am well aware of the fact that if I reaally want something I just have to change my mindset and #JustDoIt.  But I have tried it it ain't working...or most likely I am not trying hard enough. I am not aiming to be a size 8 or anything like that I just want to be more toned and  consistently live healthier. 

With Christmas round the corner I could not have picked a worse time to do this (or maybe it's the best time?) but I have decided to make a change. I am not brave enough to post monthly progress reports just quite yet but I will definitely do an annual one haha! Hey, don't judge me. I am just being realistic here ;-) .

'What are you planning on doing about it then?', I hear you ask.

Well, I am glad you asked. I just cancelled my gym membership. Now, take as much time as you need to laugh/giggle/chuckle as I know I did when I clicked that button. 

'Well how on earth do you intend on reaching your goals then?', I hear you ask.

I am deciding to have a more... holistic approach to this project this time round and then work my way back into the gym if and when needed. I am aiming to work out 3-4 times a week at home/my 'hood (thank the stars for workout DVDs and Youtube!) and throw in a couple swimming sessions every now and then. I already have a small collection of weights in my room and I am planning on using the money that would have been spent on my monthly gym membership on acquiring more workout related items to assist me in this quest. And I have almost got the hang of making yummy meals that are a lot more healthier than what I used to eat. So now, all that is left is to truly commit to making this dream of mine a reality. 

I am hoping that now that I have published this, it will make me feel like I am in The Hunger Games. Obviously I'm a combination of Katniss, Rue and Johanna (my world, my rules) and my opponents are junk food, self loathing and lazy days and you guys are the spectators (feel free to chose which District you'll like to be representing). And I am calling this segment 'Eat Pray Love' (I think it might change to 'The Hunger Games because I am really feeling the picture I have just painted lol) because I love that film, its essence and the fact that right now I feel like it is time to divorce that self-deprecating version of me and learn to love me again as I find myself (I will clearly be doing a Movie Mondays post about this film) by eating healthier and praying for endurance and positive results.

I think this might be the most "personal" post I have ever put up here but oh well, who cares? I am secretly hoping you didn't make it this far through my ramblings anyway lol. I just want to learn to love what I see in the mirror. If there is anyone out there (Heeellooo! *the greeting echoes in the silence as the bird chirps and crickets creek*) who feels like I do then I am working out with you in blogger spirit land. 

Till next time!

Luv, Mo xx

P.S. Dear 13th^th December 2014 me, your ass better be able to fit into the jeans 2011's version of us was prancing around in! Love, Mo of 13^th December 2013 xx